am i just delusional? (little rant)

Everyone says that about different stages, it shows more about what they think will be an issue for them or what they’ll enjoy the most. When I found the baby stage difficult I was told I’ll miss it when she starts to talk.. and you do look back on all the stages and miss them a little but I love her talking non stop and others find it more tiring

I miss him in my belly everyday, but not because he cries or anything like that. I love that when he's upset I am his world and get to soothe him a nd talk to him. I feel stronger and happier than ever so I don't want to go back and no longer have him in the world, I just would like to be pregnant again xx

I’m just going to be honest here, there were many many days I wished I could shove my daughter back up there for a bit when she was a newborn. Screaming for hours and never sleeping is no joke. I think it depends on your personality here, I think your boyfriend is being realistic and honest, having a baby is hard work and not always enjoyable, and it’s okay to mourn your pre baby life. Whereas you are romanticising it, you asked if you are being delusional, and you’re not, but perhaps you will feel differently to now once you are in the newborn trenches.

Now that he’s a toddler it definitely crosses my mind sometimes especially when he acts rambunctious and gets hurt

I don't think there's anything wrong with what he said. Maybe that will happen for you, maybe it won't. Most mums get exhausted, burnt out, overwhelmed at some point. I don't think I've ever had that exact thought but I've definitely wished bub would stop crying and go to sleep. Colic is hard.

My baby blues made me miss my little girl in my stomach. I showed like 2 times in three weeks because I missed my bump so much and being in my body was sooo hard without her with me. Baby blues was a bunch of irrational thoughts and it’s best not to take them seriously. It passes after 10-14 days and suddenly you’re not bawling about your child moving out despite them being like 10 days old in the moment haha. But that’s honestly the only time I wished for her to be back inside me was when I was knee deep in baby blues. After those passed I never thought deeply about her being back in again. I’ve made a comment here and there saying “it was so much easier with her in me” but it wasn’t a deep comment, it was more so I was tired and of course her needs come before mine so just some rough moments but that’s the extent and it only happened a time or two.

I remember just missing the feeling of my baby moving around in my belly - it wasn't because she was difficult outside of it - it was because it was a special thing just between her and I. When she was outside of the womb, I had to share her with everyone else and worry about all of the dangers of our world 😆

It was a light hearted joke or statement it seems .. unless it wasn't... don't make it a big deal imo. You don't know what is to come. It is alllll a wait and see and experience type of thing with having kids.

Please don't hold onto what he said and let it upset you. I think he was trying to make a haha because maybe he might feel that way and it's okay. Many people do. If im being honest, I have yet to wish baby could be back in there or that I didn't have her, not even for a moment. But that doesn't mean you'd be wrong for feel that way. There have been plenty times I've been overwhelmed with the scream crying as it pierces the ear and makes me panic 🤣

For me yes because the pregnancy was so easy compared to the newborn stage. It was just too much for me.

In a nutshell, being a parent, you go from the highest to the lowest lows, all in the space of a day. IMO the new born stage and that first year, thats the easy bit. The bit i find hardest is 18-30 months, give or take. Some days, it is so, so damn hard. Life is easy when you are pregnant. It's more amazing and wonderful with a baby, but it is 100% easier. Yeah, I totally wish some days I could go back to being pregnant. This is your first baby. You haven't done this before so nobody can expect you to know what is coming or how it will go. Enjoy what you have right now and just go with the flow for the future. Every day is different with kids. It's not a bad thing.