It’s okay to start over, I know it may seem scary. But we can save ourselves. I think counseling and therapy but def leaving the relationship. Maybe not all at once but slowly start to get your stuff together, find a place. Get a job. It can be done! There are so many resources out there. I was in an abusive relationship for 6 years. It gets better only if u take the step forward.
Message me if you need to talk xxx
You need to make an appt with your doctor so s/he can refer you to a counselor.i am sure you are a wonderful mother. Please go talk to someone and share what you feel.