You did, and always will do, your best for your child. Your child needs you present and not super stressed - your feelings matter. Well done for struggling through for so long x
I did the exact same thing with mine. I struggled with it for a while and looking back I wish I pushed myself and continued. But he was just as healthy and happy without it so I knew it was just all in my head. Try not to beat yourself up about it but I know it’s hard! 4 months is an achievement! Happy mummy happy baby x
It’s okay, your baby had all the benefits from breast milk and you did an amazing job ❤️ no need to feel guilty