Confused 🤔

I am so sorry you’re going through this right now, and I can only imagine how alone you must feel. May I ask, do you have any family or close friend that can help you get out of that situation? — I understand wanting to bring back that spark, but it seems more like manipulation to keep you around and still have his cake too. My ex-baby daddy did the same thing, and even when I brought proof, he lied through his teeth. I was always like, “Phones don’t lie!!” - invasion of privacy, it’s not what I think, so many excuses. I stayed for 5 years, 1 year after my daughter was born, we split. I couldn’t take it anymore. I did the same thing, I tried to be his “pornstar”— I tried to show him, “Hey, I want you, let’s make this work, and he would be okay for a little bit.” Then I did something drastic and put a camera in the bathroom and on my birthday… we were LITERALLY about to leave to a restaurant, I caught him red-handed, and said it was over. And I’ve never looked back.

Listen mama, a man will change for who he wants to change for. We don’t need to be chasing a man for love and attention. Always remember this “if he wanted to, he would”— he already knows it hurts you? Does he care? No. He already knows you’re trying to regain the spark? He doesn’t care. My ex used to get so angry and throw in my face that he works and supports us and I should be grateful inside of always wanting to find something. How narcissistic and manipulative is that? Gross, looking back I didn’t have self worth after having my daughter, my body wasn’t the same. But now over a year and a half later, I’m thriving on my own, haven’t dated anyone. Full time mommy to my kids, and building my relationship with God, that’s all that matters. He can have all the porn he wants now. Doesn’t matter to me, the next man will have more respect for us and we shouldn’t settle for less. Life is too short to be treated like an option. Message me anytime. Good luck with everything!