Alone

i’m 21 and my baby is 1 and i’ve been through so much i have no idea where to turn. i get like this often and it hasn’t seemed to get better. my child’s father was abusive during my pregnancy, physically and mentally and after 2 years of going through it i feel broken. i feel like i hate women almost because of what he’s done too me. i hate this negative outlook i have on life. i’ve tried therapy ive tried medication, it doesn’t work. i have no friends because i push them away. he’s cheated on me when my baby was 30 days old with someone still on high school and i feel i’ve been altered i just want who i was back. i’m so unhappy and feel like i ruined my life. people tell me they don’t want to be romantically involved with me because i have a baby. i just feel so unloved. i don’t know what to do anymore😖