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Anyone else been down today? I have been super emotional today and I don’t know why. Like first I cried watching a show bc they found out they were pregnant and were happy with it. I want to have another baby so bad😫. It reminded me that when I found out I was debating on whether or not to tell the father bc I was unsure about our relationship(we are married now and still unsure). Then I have been upset bc I keep seeing how emotional everyone has been welcoming their baby and I feel bad about myself bc I didn’t cry or anything when my baby was born. I was just in shock and kinda numb tbh so I just feel like a terrible mom. I love my babygirl to pieces and I wouldn’t ever change a thing.

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I didn’t cry either I felt shocked seeing her I was scared at first lol then when I held her I just melted with joy 🥹 that’s my girl could t of prayed for a better daughter

It took me a while to bond with my baby. Like a couple weeks I think? Delivery was sucky and he was in the nicu for 8 hours. What matters is how you feel now! You’re doing great.

I have been a complete mess today… I flipped out of my family and tripped out because I was embarrassed and mad at myself for it.

Yes- totally emotional but I think I’m super tired 😩 😭 I just can’t catch up on sleep. The exclusive pumping is kicking my ass. I want to switch to formula but I want to keep giving him breast milk 🥛 😭 this is so hard.

I felt the same. I was disassociating after labor when she was born. I also felt numb and like a bad mom. I had trouble bonding with her and I’m not with her dad. We didn’t have a good relationship before. He wasn’t supportive of my pregnancy and didn’t want the baby. It felt depressing before and after the baby. It took 8 wks for me to talk and play with my baby. I tried before but she would also not be interested or cry and she wasn’t in a bad mood too. I had trouble smiling too. I would cry a lot and I didn’t even want my baby to look at me and see how depressed I was. It did not help that she has colic. I also had birth trauma with the failed epidural giving me nerve damage. People around me weren’t emotionally supportive too. Like I did get help with the baby but they would gaslight me and make me feel like a bad mom.

People always sugarcoat motherhood. But it’s not always easy mentally, same with bonding. Some people bond right away some people take weeks or days. But regardless times get better and you will heal with time. You’re doing the best you can and that’s what matters. No one is the best but try to be the best version of you

@Lauren I was exclusively pumping and my milk couldn’t keep up with her demands and then it just stopped😩 now I’m giving her the Similac 360 total care and it’s been good so far but I wish i could have breast fed until at least a year

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