I have so much birth trauma

If youre in the UK there is a service where you can talk about your birth up until baby is 1 and it's there so you can work through birth trauma (unfortunately I cannot remember for the life of me what's it's called but a health visitor would know). I have found talking about my babies birth has really helped me.

@Helen is it a birth review? It was mentioned to me by a midwife but she didn’t really explain what it was..

Did you try reading your file with your midwife? That helped me sooooo much thank god

@April no I haven’t. Is that a birth review? My trauma is from the delivery and week after her birth so I’m not sure it would work for me

I dont know what it is exactly but after the first night i was so shocked what happened because i remembered so little about it so i asked them in the hospital to read me their notes what happened when then what almost every single thing was in mind from the delivery was wrong as pain make you see everything wrong so when the midwife came and read with me what happened and when exactly i was so relieved thank god i dont know where you are but they told me that in uk they keep the file 25 years so i can come and read it again anytime i feel the same and thank god 20 months later i didnt need to 😍 thank god, If you cant and would like to talk about your experience i am here i can hear you it might relive you a little bit i wish you are near so i could help you a little bit i know how hard and strong this feeling is ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

It took me 4 months to get rid of the PTSD stare and other symptoms of severe trauma from my traumatic birth with my firstborn who was delivered via a category 1 emergency C-section after a partial vaginal delivery (shoved him back up the birth canal for the C-section). I’m now 20 months postpartum from that experience and I can absolutely assure you it gets better over time. 9 months after I had that experience I got unintentionally pregnant first time back at it and then had an elective C-section. I was really nervous but it was perfectly fine and went a lot better, recovery was MUCH easier and faster. I promise time will help a lot. If you need extra support don’t be afraid to seek out resources for that 💕

Hello I just want to say if you need a chat I’m here! I struggled a lot with my birth and after birth. I’m in the uk and had like a birth review ask your health visitor if it’s something you can have. I found it a little bit helpful to understand why things happened during birth but they didn’t go through after birth which is where I had the most amount of questions 😫

The first 6 months are hell. It really helps talking about it. I personally won’t have a second partly due to the birth trauma. Birth trauma is real and it takes time to grieve/feel rage/ and calm down.

@April thank you! I am in the UK so will be mentioning to my midwife if it’s something they could do with me!

@Katherine I honestly feel the same. Always wanted a big family now don’t feel like I could do labour/ birth again and would just be terrified the whole time 😩😩