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I completely understand! The first time I left my daughter I had no choice at 1 week pp. I had to go to the ER and was away from her for 10 hours. The entire time I was crying and saying I didnt care what the doctors said I wanted my damn baby. The first time I willingly left her with someone else, I was 2 months pp and my fiance had convinced me to take a break for my birthday. I was happy to get a break because my fiance barely helps with her so its just me. We left her with my aunt, because if its anyone else she screams nonstop, and not even 5 minutes after we left I was checking my phone for messages in case something happened. We were only out for a few hours but the entire time I was constantly checking my phone and I couldnt stop worrying. It takes time to get used to it. You were with your baby 24/7 for 9 MONTHS before she was born, and now your still with her pretty much constantly, so leaving her is going to feel like leaving a piece of yourself, but over time it will get easier. Just take it slow.
You can't control how others do things and you have to accept the baby will be OK even if they don't change the diaper the same exact way you like it. Some battles you have to let go. Having independence from your baby is important to not lose yourself. It takes time and practice but once you find that balance is very healthy for us as mothers to have time for ourselves
I feel this tremendously. I couldn't let my first be away from me for more then 2 hours until I was forced to by going to the hospital to give birth to his baby brother. It was miserable and I was thinking about him and how much I missed him until I was physically pushing and then I was thinking about how much his little brother and him looked alike when he was born and then I just wanted them together. Being a mom is rough. All we want is time to ourselves but then all we want is our kids.
Someone told me while I was pregnant tgat leavibg the baby is like a muscle that you have to exercise to be able to do it. I’ve followed that advice and it’s helped a lot! Maybe make some fun plans for when you’ll have baby-free time, like a hike or coffee with a friend, a yoga class or some kind of activity you like. That way you’re too busy to spend the whole time thinking about your baby, and you start to build trust that other people can take care of your baby too :)