Need some uplifting

On social media I keep seeing peoples newborns and it makes me so sad . I didn’t get to cherish when my baby was a newborn he is 3 months which is still very tiny but not newborn tiny 🥹 I had a c section and after I left the hospital I was VERY sick for almost 2 weeks and then I didn’t feel a connection to my baby for a month and a half and had really case of the bad baby blues afterwards . I feel so bad that I didn’t get to fall in love with those moments and cherish it . I can barely remember him as a newborn little baby and the guilt has been eating me up and seeing newborn babies makes me feel even worse bc he’s never going to be that small again . Idk if anyone else has had a similar experience but . I am now living in the moment and enjoying him now and loving Him and holding him and sleeping with him and trying to soak it all up now but I just wish I could go back in time and do it all over again bc I feel like a horrible mom .

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What you went through must have been really hard for you.. you must give yourself some grace and not feel guilt. You are nothing but an amazing mom and your healthy baby loves you ❤️

I had an emergency c section too and I also didn’t feel a connection with my baby for that first month or so. It felt like she was just a baby we picked up from the nursery and now it was my responsibility to take care of her lol Give yourself a break. Being a new mom is hard enough. Don’t dwell on the past, it robs you from enjoying today. Take all the pictures and videos to capture those little moments forever 🤍

Ppd is a real thing and there is no shame in going through what you went through. You are enjoying him now and that's what's important. Try to block those videos if they trigger you in a negative way.

You’re not a horrible mom at all!! Those feelings are completely understandable and normal ❤️ Especially with your first baby, there’s such a huge learning curve too, on top of the other things you mentioned. Your chance to bond in right now 😊

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