Low point

I left my ex a little over a year ago. We had two kids together. The relationship was emotionally abusive. I’m so thankful I left and would never think twice about going back to that but I have never been at a lower point in my life than I have this past year. I resent my kids father so much and hate having to continue to communicate with him. Life seems unbearable now. I hate the situation I put myself in and feel I can’t continue to live like this. I know I love my kids and they’re my world but this dark time has caused me to become so numb. I’ve lost all motivation and I fear my life is truly going to fall apart. I have always been the most caring and optimistic person ever. I don’t even know who I am anymore or what I want. I just know I wanna be happy again and be hopeful. I can’t go on this way anymore. I just feel so alone but know there have to be other women who have gone through the same thing. I just wanna get through this for my kids.