Not myself

I so desperately want to “get my pink back” I’m not myself, I don’t look at my partner the same since giving the birth. I don’t have any libido. I’m easily agitated towards my husband and feel like he needs to evolve emotionally already I’m so fed up dealing with the same problems and repeating myself I just snapped this morning. All I care about is loving and taking care of my baby boy to the point that I don’t care who I offend in the process. I’ve been so exhausted physically and mentally lately. I think exclusively breastfeeding has something to do with that along with a combination of other things. Does it get better? I’m 6 mo post partum. I’ve considered seeing a psychiatrist but it’s not like I can take anything while breastfeeding anyway. I don’t see certain family members the same even. It seems like my husband’s the same person he was before I gave birth and I had to evolve into a mother the second I gave birth everything changed. Also it’s so hard for me to want to get out of the house I just want to stay home and care for my baby. I don’t feel seen or heard, I feel like no one understands me. I just want to be happy and chill out. I always have my guard up. My body is different my mind is different I’m overwhelmed with how much my life has changed while also loving my son more than I’ve ever loved anyone or anything in my life.

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Just wanted to say that I’m 6 months pp and feeling a lot of these things too. Sending hugs and my messages are open if you want to commiserate 🖤

I’m almost 6 month PP, and I’m dealing with pretty much everything you’ve said. I took my baby on a plane to visit family for Thanksgiving to get the needed break I deserve. I go back home this Saturday. My bf didn’t like it (cuz we went w/o him) but oh well 🤷🏻‍♀️ I got tired of telling him what I need and not feeling heard. I’d suggest finding a healthy outlet to deal with your feelings. I like to write and take walks outside. They say it takes 2 years to get back to your full self after having a baby. I’m here if you want to talk ❤️

Thank you ladies for sharing. ❤️

Actually there’s things you can take that are completely fine while breastfeeding. Definitely talk to a doctor about your options that’s what my SIL and I did and it definitely helped.

There are medications you can take that are safe for breast feeding - I have to continuously take an anti depressant while pregnant and breast feeding and it’s safe. It’s sounding like your anxiety is keeping your guard up but also making you pretty miserable in the process towards everyone but your baby, and that’s not a good mental space to be in

I have been taking my SSRI (lexapro) for years and I continued it during both of my pregnancies and breastfeeding with my doctor’s permission 😊 it helped a lot. Im also 6 months postpartum

I’ve been debating taking something for my anxiety and depression but I’ve always been scared how it’d affect my body ( the symptoms) & now ofc my baby. Also not sure if they’d work well :(

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