What do I do?
I feel like I’ve migrated into this weird mental state where I’m starting to feel tired and I find myself randomly starting to tear up when I’m playing with my 2 month old. I start thinking about how unhappy I feel overall but that my baby is the only source of light I feel and then that makes me feel like I’m putting so much pressure on a baby. I feel like I sound crazy. I’ve been in a weird place with my boyfriend and don’t feel confident talking about these feelings with him. And if any of the mom friends I’ve made IRL really want to spend time with me but I find myself isolating myself and pulling away. But then the realization that I don’t go out anymore starts to make me feel really sad. I want to go out I do, but so much comes with that. But I dread leaving the house bc finding clothes that fit my postpartum body is overwhelming. I get really upset that all I wear/fit me are my pajamas. It’s gotten to a point where I just don’t want to be seen by my boyfriend’s relatives. I’m only in REAL communication with my older sister. But I also don’t want to talk to her about these things either, I love her but I don’t think she’ll understand. What is this? What do I do?
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Sounds like depression. I’v been there . Have you ever considered therapy?
@Fedele I just don’t know when I’d have the time. I don’t even know what to call whatever it is I’m experiencing. Maybe I’m in denial?
@Melody I feel like talking to him gets me nowhere. I love him but he just doesn’t get it and we’ve been in an awful place for sometime
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I feel you. I don't like my postpartum body 1 year ago. I don't want to go out. My xs clothes wont fit anymore because I was XL postpartum until bow that my bib is already 13 months. I always just wear leggings and big tshirt always. I can't even dress like before. But slowly I tried to accept it..that it will not be permanent. I go out now and making my priority the needs of my bub now that his active. Need to walk him with his stroller...etc. Take your time to heal. Talk to your partner ..it's better to open up to him. You need emotional support from him not only to your sister.