Hey girl, I'm sending hugs. I've battled with depression for over a decade now and as scary as it is it gets manageable and sometimes doesn't come up for months on end. Such is life, highs and lows. First, remember to give yourself grace, you've gone through SO MUCH, physically but emotionally, spiritually. We lost part of ourselves in becoming mothers and moving abroad or even away from our network is also very difficult. There's 4 chemicals to focus on that help maintain a healthy mind : Dopamine (reward, doing things you don't want to, ticking things off your To-do list) Oxytocin (bonding, seeing friends) , Serotonin (sunshine make sure you spend at least 10min outside as early in the day as you can) and Endorphins (exercise). Try and slowly build around that, focusing on the little things that make you happy (for example I hate working out but don't mind yoga) . I also write gratitudes at night and journal, 5min a day is enough. You got this babe, you're not alone and it won't last forever, sending hugs x
Obviously not trying to sound like giving advice, sorry if it does, just sharing what's worked for me over the years but realistically I just want to say that I'm on medication too and the other stuff is what helps me stay on top of it xxx
Thank you
I feel ya mumma. My birth was traumatic for me (once bub was out, had c section) and my breastfeeding journey didn't go to plan either