Does anyone else just wish they could stop

I’m not suicidal, but I just can’t physically do this day in and day out anymore. Like someone needs to fking help me. My daughter dirties her nappy and it takes all my strength to get up and clean it, make meals, clean meals, carry her round all day when my back hurts. No one cares. My life is a nightmare and I’m supposed to be grateful. My relationship has gone to shit, I genuinely resent him so much for the way I have to feel every day. I cringe when he touches me, we used to be in love. I can’t stand this anymore. Every time she wakes in the night I just want to scream and cry.
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Hey girl, be easy on yourself! Your going great and remind yourself your doing great and give yourself grace. I feel like this at times but I just remember this is what I signed up for and my daughter deserves the best version of me. I broke up with her dad because I resented him and he was not much help. I’m feeling abit better although quite lonely but I’m facing my new reality with not having to deal with him as it was putting me down. Anyway dm me if you like to rant on girl. I’m here x

Sounds like postnatal depression to me. Might be worth getting in touch with a doctor and speaking through options such as therapy or medication and see how you get on x

I think it’s very normal to feel like this at times but if you’re feeling like this all the time you must speak to your GP or health visitor for support. For yourself as well as your little girl - you want her to have the best version of yourself! Do you have any friends or family that can support you? If you have, tell them what’s going on to see if they can physically step up.

@Julia I have been medicated for PPD already for 8 months. It’s not ppd, it’s lack of support and isolation which I have no way to change. I made the biggest mistake of my life by thinking I would handle this.

@Samantha I don’t even care anymore. No, no one helps. I live in a foreign speaking country in an isolated place and I don’t drive.

I wonder if it’s a bit of both?! But do agree, if social factors are the primary precipitating and perpetuating triggers then medication might not be the most helpful if used alone. Have you been able to access any form of talking therapy alongside medication? It might not change things around you but just tweak how you approach and manage it all. And that’s not inferring you’re the issue or managing badly, only how perspective is such a powerful mechanism and when we are starting to feel shit we have a tendency to start seeing everything bad and very little of the good so it becomes a slippy slope. Genuinely wishing you all the best x

Hey, things do get better. Now is a very difficult time with most babies teething and going through a sleep regression but it will get so much better. Try to do one thing each day that makes YOU happy. I meal prep my baby’s meals and pop them in the freezer so all I have to do is defrost and reheat for baby’s meal times and that makes things a lot easier. I also sleep trained my baby using the Ferber method and I can’t recommend it enough, truly! Although you may not want to, get out of the house for a walk and grab a coffee however often you can. My dms are open 🤍

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