no one takes my PPA seriously

I’ve told my OB and my son’s pediatrician and my own psychiatrist about it. They don’t take it seriously. I was on anxiety medication (Klonopin) for ten years before I was pregnant, stopped bc I was pregnant and went without it. No withdrawals or anything. And im still not on it. Nothing else works for anxiety. They keep pushing SSRI’s which im on. I’ve also been on them and tried almost every SSRI there is (with the exception of 3 or 4 bc I’ve been on them since I was 13! That’s over ten years) and on one now and it’s not helping my anxiety bc my anxiety isn’t stemming from depression and postpartum has changed my anxiety it’s different now and almost unbearable. I don’t sleep for days or nights on end. I hardly leave the house. I want to go to the ER because panic attacks are so bad but I’ve done that and know what they’ll say and do and it seems redundant. I feel im not being the best mom I could be to my son. I just want to cry writing this bc I don’t know what else to do!