@Nora ah thank you i needed that 😭💕 it's not for me and I just feel awful :(
I contemplated trying it to out of desperation, and in terms of your MIL I would have told her to get out too. It’s not really what you want to hear when you’re trying your best.
You tried it and it didn’t work for you. Don’t beat yourself up over it. You won’t have caused any long term emotional stress and in terms of MIL I’d just say sweetly well what do you suggest seeing as you’re an expert? And don’t even rise to it. I don’t know if you’ve tried this method and don’t get me wrong it is exhausting but when baby cries you pop hand on chest and soothe when she settles take a couple of steps back and wait if she cries again repeat the steps until she falls asleep. It lets them know you are there but knowing you’re not going to get them up out of their cot
Don’t feel bad at all it’s not for everyone and there’s other softer ways to allow them to soothe at night. At least you know you don’t want to try it again and look for something else when you are ready
Parenthood is mostly trial and error as long as it is for their best interest. Never beat yourself up about caring for your child and finding solutions. You are trying your best and that matters. Also remember, babies don’t hold grudges, they still love and want you no matter what.
Don’t stress about it too much, you tried it and it’s not for you, it’s a new day and little one has forgotten about it by now. Don’t be too hard on yourself