Idk if I’m bleeding

I had a sch at the start of this pregnancy so am always on edge about it. I was sitting in at my midwife appointment when I first fell pregnant (but had already had a few scans due to bleeds) and while she was going through the questions I had to ask to stop to go to the toilet because I thought I was bleeding, I went back into the room crying but this was at about 8 weeks. I’m now 23+5 weeks haven’t had a bleed since 11+4 but I really feel like I am again. I have checked and there’s like a pinkish discharge but nothing compared to what it was before and idk what to do 🙃 The hematoma is finally shrinking but is still there but I know if I phone they’ll ask questions like is it enough to fill a pad in half an hour which this time is no (every other time was yes) so I don’t think I’d be able to get checked I’m just worrying. Even after checking it just feels like there’s so much more than there actually was.