Personally my mental health has been manageable but I am prone to depression and anxiety. My midwife told me to keep an eye on my symptoms as I could develop postpartum psychosis. Maybe book an appt with your family doctor to discuss.
I was so nervous when we first brought my little boy home- I almost wondered how I was even allowed to just leave the hospital with a whole human to take care of like that! So the anxiety is totally normal! I have gotten so much better as my son has gotten older and I’ve learned more about him. I still worry and calm myself by checking on him often, but I try to remind myself that I’m doing everything in my power to keep him safe and happy, and focus on loving him and treasuring the moments we get to spend together, even at 4 AM when I’m so tired it feels like my eyes are going to fall out 😅 You’ve got this!
I understand your feelings, just to see your LO so fragile, I go through the same. I used to cry at night because I felt I could not do this. It is not about me not wanting to do it, but I was so scared of screwing it up. My husband helped me a lot with my confidence.