Am I being unreasonable?
Right girls, just need a sounding board here and to know if I’m being unreasonable or not. These things may not seem like a big deal but I’ve outlined below why they are to me…I know in the grand scheme of things they obv aren’t! But on the daily I am just tired of it.
I suffer from PMDD and at the best of times my anxiety, self-worth and how I feel about myself is hanging by a thread. My husband is aware of this and I have tried to explain to him how my anxiety causes me to overthink and just generally be really self aware and also believe that he deserves a lot better because I can feel like such a burden. (He makes me feel like small things that effect me should not be a big issue, struggles to see things from my point of view). I am very lucky with our life and having him and my daughter, I know people have it way worse than what I do. Generally he is a good husband but he is not helpful when it comes to helping my anxiety and the things I have told him trigger it.
Anyway, I’ve been trying to return to CrossFit for months now which is based on the same site as we both own and run our business. Finally, I returned 2 weeks ago which I was dreading and even still I feel anxious beforehand and self conscious when I’m there. But I’m so proud of myself of getting back there and persevering. When I was there today I overheard the owner (coaching the class) and someone else talking about something during the class that may have a direct impact on our business. I came out, told my husband, and specifically asked that he didn’t ask about it because it would make me seem like a right weirdo and as if I was intentionally listening in. I explained we could subtly ask about it tomorrow.
Fast forward a couple of hours, he had driven past the owner of CrossFit and wound down the window and said that I had overheard what I had heard during the class and started asking questions about it. I explained that I was annoyed and why and he tells me I am over reacting. I got so upset about just the general disrespect of him always pestering me to share my feelings and why/how I feel and the things that effect me only for him to disregard them and do stuff like this. I explained that now I feel like I can’t go back to CrossFit because I’m mortified and that he should have known better. We let it rest as I’ve been out teaching this evening. Now, I’ve come home and been back for literally 30 mins, and he passive aggressively mentions that he has cleaned and tidied the house because that’s the only thing I value about him when he does it.
When I looked at him and said “that’s not very nice and you know that’s not true” he puts it down as a joke and that I’m overreacting again. He does it with our business partner too. Any time we share our feelings or call him out on something he says it’s a joke.
I’ve just had to take myself upstairs because I literally feel so upset and like I’m overrreacting.
We are due to have our first date night since having or 7 month old tomorrow and I just don’t want to go out now.
Am I overreacting completely?
Um, not quite sure where to start with this one... But if I just give you the comparison how I would have acted... If I overheard something that would potentially impact family business I'd be going over asking about it myself straight away. It's important to understand the impact and if there's something you can do to adapt right? Then if I asked my husband not to do something because we'd do it together the next day, and he still went ahead and did it, I would be annoyed but that wouldn't stop me from going to CrossFit as I don't quite understand why would you mortified? Are you worried about people thinking badly of you because you overheard a conversation? For me that would be a conversation starter and an opportunity to connect to local people and just generally become more involved in community goings on. So yeah it sounds like you do have a tendency to make things more awkward for yourself than strictly speaking necessary...