proud of myself

I’ve been extremely depressed because i haven’t been working. I’m starting to go independent in my field. but Today i actually gave my kids a bath, blew bubbles in the tub for them. and we ate ice cream, blasted music and jumped on the couch. it seems like nothing but im happy because i was being the mom i’ve always wanted to be. i’m glad i was able to step outside of my self hatred for a moment and just make them smile