I think I’m loosing myself

I’ve delt with nocturnal panic attacks for years now and I did have them under control at one point but now they’ve came back with a vengeance. I constantly feel like I’m gonna die or me heart is going to stop, it’s been going on for 2 months straight and I have no clue on why my panic attacks are hitting me harder then before. It’s also got to the point to where I’ve started to hear voices and I feel absolutely petrified & I think I’m a bad mam for it. I’ve spoken to me partner about what’s been happening and he told me to get in touch with my GP, so I’ve now been booked in for mental evaluation to hopefully get the proper help I need but I still can’t shake the feeling of guilt. I know a lot of new mam’s go through rough patches but I feel guilty for having panic attacks around my daughter. I don’t what her to grow up to think her mam is a loony or having people judging/ thinking I can’t take care of her due all of this mental BS I’ve been dealing with. Can anyone help? I just want the panic attacks to go away