Much needed venting…

I feel like every time my life gets better, I get into a huge deep depression phase and I’m in one now. I have a great husband but we’ve our love language isn’t the same which makes hard. I have no friends and I’ve been trying so hard and this is my third time trying but it doesn’t go anywhere. My in laws talk crap about me but we have officially cut them out of my life but I’ve been hurt so much. I feel so lonely in this big world.