Venting

My husband is an over the road truck driver and I am a stay at home of 4 children, 2 autistic children. I’ve been a stay at home for years and I wanted to pursue my career and my husband doesn’t want me to pursue my career at all. He’s always worried about himself. I cry to him about me being stressed out and he always somehow flip it on himself. I have so much going on mentally and physically. I’m in school virtually and I’m trying to get my CDL’s and nobody helps so I had to push trucking school back. I don’t have a support system or anything. I’ve been diagnosed with anxiety, depression, autism, adhd, hyperthyroidism and everything. He gets mad at me and takes money from me when he’s supposed to be a provider and that’s why I would rather work instead of feeling like I need to rely on him because he’s the type of man who gets the big head and controls everything. I’ve came to him about me having mental breakdowns and on the verge of losing my sanity and he doesn’t seem concerned or care. I have to do everything by myself and it’s stressful along with caring for our dogs. When I cry every other day in misery because I’ve never gotten a break at all. Even when he gets off the road, I’m still helping him. Out of 9 years, I only had 3 days to myself for a break and that’s not healthy at all. It’s a lot and I am so overwhelmed and drained. I don’t want to do nothing that I will regret.