Honestly can't do this anymore

I'm sorry you're struggling, it really sounds like you need a break. There's a charity called home start which I've heard about a lot from twin mums. They are able to help by providing support at home so you can rest. I'd reach out to them and see if they'd be able to help you. There are night nannies so you can sleep uninterrupted but I imagine that would get quite expensive. Would you be comfortable with a cleaner coming one day a week to help with that side of things. I would reach out to your health visitor or GP as they might be able to signpost you to free services that can support you through this x

I have this with my 16 month old he’s been referred to get tested for autism I thought I wrote this myself for a second my homes a mess because I can’t get to clean but I’ve hired a cleaner now If you ever need a chat message me or if you anywhere near Cambridge then i don’t mind babysitting whilst you get things done? Im dbs checked and everything as use to work in nurserys x

Have a look at the bubble app also as you mind be able to find childcare that way, even if just a few hours a week so you can sleep, and some will clean your home. X

I know it’s difficult but your baby can feel your emotions, they can feel your stress,sadness and anger to which they respond with crying and irritation, sometimes they can’t tell you what’s wrong , they want comfort and to know that they are safe. I understand juggling everything is hard but try include them in the jobs , they will feel more secure and included and over time detach from being so clingy , I say this with experience. I’m sorry to hear your struggling but remember your their safe place and they need yku

I don’t think anyone was ever ‘meant’ to do it all and do it alone so please don’t feel you are failing. You are and you are probably doing far better than you credit yourself with your child for but you also need to try and advocate for yourself . It sounds like where you live is pretty remote but have you reached out to your health visitor as there has to help for you somewhere. This toddler business is really challenging and you need space to recoup. Here if you want to message! 🌺

I’m not sure where you are based but have you put your name down on as many local nursery waiting lists as possible? People’s circumstances change and a place may become available sooner than you think. Can you use a nursery a bit further away in the meantime. I also work for myself in a busy and stressful job. I only manage it because I have a rigid routine, sleep trained at 4 months and have a cleaner that comes for 5 hours a week twice a week. My baby goes to nursery too, he started at 10 weeks doing 1 day and I increased it from there. It’s hard, even if you have help, but no wonder your struggling if you don’t have any, if you can’t find a nursery, maybe try to find a cleaner or babysitter, even a student who sits with your baby for 2-3 hours a couple of times a week whilst you chill/clean/work in another room.

Hi mama. I see you. I see your efforts and your pain. I understand exactly what you are going through. Hang in there. It will get better. You are not failing. This is really really hard work. You are a rockstar for doing all this everyday. This is a temporary phase, this too shall pass. Just hold on. Our kids will get more independent with time, they will get better at eating and sleeping too. Just focus on doing the bare minimum chores and taking care of yourself and the baby. I hope things get better for you soon.