I’m drowning in motherhood.

I have a 2 year old & 2 month old. My husband just went back to work so I’ve been solo from 11am to bedtime with them & I HATE IT! I love my kids, but I feel like I can’t do it. It’s only been 3 days & I’ve already cried my eyes out every single day. Both of them want to be held all day & I literally cannot. I know it won’t be this forever but I’m seeing nooooo light at the end of the tunnel right now. It’s gonna be hard for me to go back to work bc my husband’s hours are unpredictable now. He doesn’t understand how hard it is for me & I don’t like complaining to him bc I know it’s not easy for him to have to work so much either. I literally just want to cry all the time when I’m alone with them. I have no help outside of my husband & it’s taking a toll on me.