Threatened miscarriage and placenta abruption

Has anyone experienced anything similar? At 17 weeks pregnant I had a massive bleed and was rushed to hospital. When I tell family this story they say it just seemed like a lot of blood but i cleaned up the blood for the hospital to weigh so they'd know how serious it was. I can't emphasise enough on how much I lost & how traumatic it was at the time. But thankfully baby girl was all okay, happy in there bouncing around but I lived in absolute fear for months, couldn't bond with her because I was so scared I wouldn't ever meet her. While in labour at 38 weeks pregnant I started bleeding but the midwife said, it's because my labour came on so fast but a doctor came in not long after and wasn't happy with what they was seeing & took me down to theatre where they found I was having a placenta abruption, thankfully baby girl was all okay & she's now nearly 8 months old. At the time I felt I'd healed mentally after the bleed & just felt incredibly lucky but as my little girl is getting old I'm starting to notice I'm actually not okay, I feel so traumatised by the whole thing, the bleed at 17 weeks and then the placenta abruption. I find myself trying to find others that have gone through the same thing or trying to google to see why could have this happened to me. I just want to hear someone who has faced something similar and has come out the other end and can see the positive? How do I not feel like something bad is waiting for me around every corner?