Ugh

I’m probably gonna get called a POs cheater butttt first let me say that I’m in a relationship with a narcissist, liar and lazy mf who doesn’t help me with kids at all. I genuinely feel like a single momma in a relationship. Yes he is the father to the kids. Yes I stay a home while he works 5 -8 hours a day depending on his work schedule. I feel so alone. I can’t leave, I have no where to go. No money or anything. So after I have baby in February I’m going to work then. Rn I’m absolutely miserable and exhausted tho. I really want a girlfriend or even a friend and maybe become official after I leave him. I just wanna be happy. I’ve tried to make our relationship work tbh. He constant puts me down. Loved puttting me down in front of his family and friends. He literally never has anything to say positive about me. So I’ve decided to get a girlfriend 🥺 to atleast feel a tiny bit important. But I have no clue how to go about it ☹️