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hi mums. idk why i’m posting this, i just need it off my chest. i’m a 17yr old sahm, and i’ve been struggling greatly with depression anxiety and rage especially since i gave birth (not rlly diagnosed) im beginning to not want to be with my partner anymore. it’s 8am as i write this, i was up all night with the baby and got 0 sleep so when she woke up at 7am i tried to handle her but i was so tired i couldn’t even see and so at 7:20am i asked my partner (her dad) for help and i explained i really need help. he got so mad at me bc he starts work at 8:30am (ubering there) and he’s already left and still has 30 whole minutes before he needs to start, i feel so hurt because i confessed to him i want to kill myself and relapse (for the past few years i had a bad self harm problem, 1.5 years clean now tho) and he just brushed me off and said he’s going to get fired if he’s late. for me i feel like this is the last straw, but am i being dramatic? he never helps when he gets home from work cos he’s too tired, he will do things like fold the washing or change bubs nappy but never anything more, but mamas i am exhausted! and it’s just been getting worse lately. please help me. i legitimately need help and idk what to do anymore 💔