Lonely mama

To any of you that have no friends/family near by what do you do to make things abit easier. My lg has just turned 7 months n it occurred to me today I’ve seen 1 friend since she was born. We moved to my partners hometown which is about 40 mins from my hometown but it’s a close to 2 hour train ride and I don’t drive. I’ve tried afew times to get the train now and each time they’ve been cancelled so I gave up. My family very rarely come to see me maybe once or twice a month and like I said I went down to see a friend once since she’s been born. I’ve spoke to some lovely people on here but not got to the point of actually meeting. I get super bad anxiety at the thought of baby groups I know I’d be fine once I was there but I just can’t pluck up the courage to do it, same with going out for a walk or to the shops I enjoy it once I’m there but actually doing it honestly nearly gives me a panic attack 😂 I feel like I’m going insane and I’m incredibly jealous of my partner who sees his work friends/ friends and dad multiple times a week I obviously know it’s not his fault n would never take it out on him but I get so bitter when he makes plans with them 😂 it’s got that bad me and my partner call our curtains the curtains of sanity because If their not open I feel crazy it’s like I have to see people walking by just to know there is actually an outside world out there 😂 so yeah the question is what do you all do to make it alittle bit easier on yourselves I love my lg a crazy amount but if I knew it would be this lonely I would’ve never moved from my home town 😭