@Tiaja we have had conversations about how I feel like he was shutting down the things I wanted to do but he got defensive about it we have also had conversations about getting help from a therapist for our relationship but no advances have being made for that in two months now
I don't understand shutting down something that sounds like what you need for yourself right now. There shouldn't even be an issue. But go with your gut, if it's been going on for too long then leave. You have to protect yourself and also your child will see this, kids are very smart to what is going on. I would start with an another conversation about it, set up therapy for you both, & if nothing improves talks about moving forward without each other.
First I want to say I commend you to working on yourself because that's important for your mental. He should be supportive of that and proud. Has this conversation been had with him yet?