So glad there are others (but not ofc)

Hey all, I was wondering if there was a group for this! Of course it sucks that there is but it’s nice to not feel alone…. Currently with my narcissist. We have a 3 1/2 month old baby boy. It is getting really hard. Sometimes I just want to dissapear or hope that God doesn’t let me see another day. Not because I don’t love my son but because it is so horriffic facing who I let his father be. All because I didn’t have the strength to leave. And even though I have MORE strength now jt isn’t enough. I get so scared of what will happen, not being with my baby 24/7, what his family will be like, how far he’ll go, bringing random girls around our son, mentally abusing our son, EVERYTHING!! To the point where it is hard for me to be fully present as a mom. He got mad at me because I went to go pickup my mom food that she wanted tonight right across the street. Literally makes no sense. I am so tired. He never wants to help with the baby. Maybe that will come in handy if/when I leave him because I prefer he sees his dad as little as possible. Everytime I turn around I am in trouble with him. You guys get it. Just some advice would be great. I have 0 motivation.

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Make a plan to get put with your child. Do you have evidence of his behaviours?
I'm sorry ypure going through this but it's a great step that ypu can see it for what it is. Get support around you and build up to leaving for good x

Hi beautiful, were you able to survive the night?

You know what Queen no narcissist is worth your life ending. They are not worthy of you dying for them. Some people would say that you should stay because of a child but what kind of life will the children have in a toxic environment?

I get being scared 24/7, but the first step toward liberating yourself is to face those fear and no longer be a slave to it. You mention you have some strength now, channel that strength into facing your fears, forgiving yourself for making a mistake of being with him. Always tell yourself you rather suffer as a single mum than be with someone and hurt even much more. Rekindle all broken relationships with family and friends who matter you will need physical support and find a way to elevate yourself. You can look for jobs where you do few hours and mum can help you with baby it really does make a difference. And you are allowed to come on here and vent instead of fighting him. Go low contact with him

Thank you so much!!! And I do have some videos of verbal abuse and pictures of bruises that I am pretty sure were from him but I was blackout drunk so I don’t remember. They showed up a few days later

THANK YOU!! Yes you are right I do not need to let him take the joy in living!! I will be channeling that strength. I am beggining to slowly rekindle my relationships. Thankfully we live w my family but my parents are in a bad relationship too so it’s hard. I do have a job offer that is available to me anytime. Just need to take those steps. Breaks my heart because I know he will be so spiteful

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Hour night wakes and 5am get up

Can anyone shed some light as to why on earth my child doesn’t want to sleep??? My eyeballs are bleeding!!

Never been a good sleeper, but the problems always changing. He’s nearly 9 months old.

Beginning of the month he dropped to 2 naps. We could put him to bed at 7pm and he’d get up for the day at 6am, with multiple wake ups every 2/3 hours.

Now we put him down at 7pm, he can do a good 4/5 hour stretch, but come 1/2am he’s up every hour then getting up for the day at 5am. This then completely messes up the day because I can’t keep him awake long enough to even get to 7pm, let alone later.

He has 2 naps, roughly about 1hr10 each but it changed based on when he wakes and trying to get him to a reasonable bed time.

What could be the reason for this? 6am is fine, but 5am is not 😩😩

I think its fair

Me and my partner agreed to sleep in 1 day of the weekend.
He doesn't find it fair to look after both kids (my 4 year old isnt his) while i sleep so he looks after the baby while i sleep and my toddlers at his dads and ill look after both the next day.
Straightaway it was pretty unfair as i let him sleep in until he wakes up 10-12
He wakes me up when baby starts fussing because he wants milk (doesnt need it)
I cant pump as i dont supply enough.
So i get woken at 9/9:30 to feed baby then i get him sleep then theres no point sleeping in as my toddlers being dropped off.
I also find it unfair that i get both kids to sleep most night, i get my toddler to sleep everyday hes home (4/5days) and i get my baby to sleep most nights with the exception of maybe twice a month as his dad struggless then about 95% of his thru the day naps.
I have also been unwell for a few months (tumor scare) and am waiting 18 weeks to see a specialist so im obviously petrified for that, so unbelievably tired and alot of aches and pains, specifically these pounding headaches ive been having.
After i had been up til 11:30 getting both kids to sleep lastnight and my partner falling asleep at 10 then him ignoring the baby cries all morning until my toddler woke up im fed up slammed to door and rold him not to expect to sleep in unless he gets the baby to sleep the night b4.
I keep having issues with him not feeling the wet from baby being sick or weeing himself or being able to smell it do about 98% of the time hes given to me i have to clean him up n change him.
Including at night, we agreed my partner would change nappies (1 a night at 5am) while i feed (2,4,5,6:30) but every night when i get him hes pissed through and my partner gets annoyed when i wake him up n moan about it.
Then the morning after hes annoyed at how much washing there is (thats his job) and moans about how often i change myself (baby constantly shits thru and sicks on me) and baby
Honestly im just so tired all the time

AITA

In the uk there is an outbreak of meningitis, in a specific area mainly. My BD has family from that area and decided to go and meet up with them, I said if he does then he cannot have contact with the kids for 7-10 days after incase he picks anything up. Am I being over dramatic? I reallyyy don’t want my young kids getting anything serious

Over supply of milk

I am nearly 5weeks postpartum and I have such a big over supply of BM.
Has anyone donated / sold their supply, if so where do you recommend for this?

Crawling and walking

So my girl is 9 months now and shes great at sitting up and stays on her tummy for awhile but she seems to have no interest in trying to move or crawl or bum shuffle. Shes a big baby always has been but I'm disabled and I feel like it's my fault she's not hitting milestones I feel like there's something I'm not doing and it's making me a bad mum

Night feeding in sleeping bag

Do you guys keep your baby in their sleeping bag when you feed them in the night, or do you take it off? I take it off as don’t want him to be too hot but then sometimes when he’s sleepy after his feed and I go to put it back on him he wakes up and is fussy. Not sure if I should just keep him in it?