So glad there are others (but not ofc)

Hey all, I was wondering if there was a group for this! Of course it sucks that there is but it’s nice to not feel alone…. Currently with my narcissist. We have a 3 1/2 month old baby boy. It is getting really hard. Sometimes I just want to dissapear or hope that God doesn’t let me see another day. Not because I don’t love my son but because it is so horriffic facing who I let his father be. All because I didn’t have the strength to leave. And even though I have MORE strength now jt isn’t enough. I get so scared of what will happen, not being with my baby 24/7, what his family will be like, how far he’ll go, bringing random girls around our son, mentally abusing our son, EVERYTHING!! To the point where it is hard for me to be fully present as a mom. He got mad at me because I went to go pickup my mom food that she wanted tonight right across the street. Literally makes no sense. I am so tired. He never wants to help with the baby. Maybe that will come in handy if/when I leave him because I prefer he sees his dad as little as possible. Everytime I turn around I am in trouble with him. You guys get it. Just some advice would be great. I have 0 motivation.

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Make a plan to get put with your child. Do you have evidence of his behaviours? I'm sorry ypure going through this but it's a great step that ypu can see it for what it is. Get support around you and build up to leaving for good x

Hi beautiful, were you able to survive the night? You know what Queen no narcissist is worth your life ending. They are not worthy of you dying for them. Some people would say that you should stay because of a child but what kind of life will the children have in a toxic environment? I get being scared 24/7, but the first step toward liberating yourself is to face those fear and no longer be a slave to it. You mention you have some strength now, channel that strength into facing your fears, forgiving yourself for making a mistake of being with him. Always tell yourself you rather suffer as a single mum than be with someone and hurt even much more. Rekindle all broken relationships with family and friends who matter you will need physical support and find a way to elevate yourself. You can look for jobs where you do few hours and mum can help you with baby it really does make a difference. And you are allowed to come on here and vent instead of fighting him. Go low contact with him

@Charlotte Thank you so much!!! And I do have some videos of verbal abuse and pictures of bruises that I am pretty sure were from him but I was blackout drunk so I don’t remember. They showed up a few days later

@Thel🇹🇹🇬🇧 THANK YOU!! Yes you are right I do not need to let him take the joy in living!! I will be channeling that strength. I am beggining to slowly rekindle my relationships. Thankfully we live w my family but my parents are in a bad relationship too so it’s hard. I do have a job offer that is available to me anytime. Just need to take those steps. Breaks my heart because I know he will be so spiteful

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