Depression

I am not sure if it’s depression or anything or it’s just normal and I should ignore I feel like am not a good mom, wife or daughter or even a person. I am loosing feelings on everything and everyone except my kid. But when my kid doesn’t eat properly I get angry.. I don’t show it on him but I go inside a room when he is asleep.. lock the door and punch a pillow or something It’s more like a disappointment than anger.. scared that his nutrition will be incomplete..and am incapable of feeding him or he hates my food. These are my feelings.. He eats really good in daycare but not at home.. I am sending him to daycare just so he can eat.. Except food he is good at everything.. his strength, cognitive development everything.. He is 24 month old. He knows his colors, some alphabet sounds, counts till 15, does role play, plays with building blocks, puzzles, he even sings some singing notes, tries to play guitar, climbs ropes, ladder, hangs on his own weight, talks big sentences, when I say am tired.. he tries to understand not trouble too much. Except when he has to eat. Socially he is a charmer as well but only likes to play with big kids. Repeats every word no matter how difficult it is. We even went kids go carting and he learned his left and right turns in 5 min. I don’t know if there are any mental help groups available or I should meet a doc but I don’t want negative vibrations in a place where he breathes. I want to improve. Any insights or suggestions would really help me. Thank you mamas