Am I in my own head?
When I was diagnosed of GD, I had the flu for a week and a stomach bug following so I wasn’t really eating much therefore I had little to no readings however my morning readings were still around a 6. I wasn’t told that I had targets however I just knew that they needed to be lower than a 7.8. Once I recovered from the stomach bug I was told to start metformin as it was my fasting levels that needed to be lower (by this time I still was not told my actual targets) I was only able actually to eat for around 2/3 days while monitoring my levels and seeing what foods best suited me. My morning levels are slowly decreasing however I just had a call with my diabetic point of contact and they advised that they would like it to be lower so to double the dose of the metformin. I did let her know that I did have the flu and a stomach bug so I’ve only really been eating well for the last 2/3 days so I would like to continue to try and control it with my diet and exercise if I’m just given a bit more time. However, she suggested it would be best to just start taking double the dose of the metformin.
This seems really unfair to me. Does it seem that way to anyone else? The diabetic nurse did let me know that being ill does affect your levels too? Which again just makes me feel like it’s not fair because we’re not giving a chance to find out if I can actually just control it with diet and exercise.
Btw I was told my fasting targets today which I’ve hit!
I felt similarly when I was put on medication. What I tried to do was 1 remember that it's not about me, it's about what's best for baby and 2 figure out why I was so stuck on the idea that I *should* be able to control it with diet and exercise. For me it was that I wanted to feel in control. But I , none of us are. Once I let go of the idea that I had done something wrong if I needed medication everything felt easier.