Self harm.

So for the past maybe 2 weeks my depression has gotten worse to the point I started cutting myself to feel alive again.. and realizing that this isn’t a dream.. I have been prescribed something for it but with no support system and being a single mom of 2 boys.. I keep forgetting because of my boys needing attention at all times. I haven’t been okay.. In taking care of myself and it actually is now to the point where I don’t eat, I don’t sleep, I don’t shower. I feel like an absolute mess. I have no one to help me with them, and I feel as though it is rubbing off on them.. I try to be happy for from as they are both happy healthy boys but my brain just isn’t working that way. My 6 year old always asks me why I’m so sad.. and it kills me that I can’t hide it anymore it’s gotten so bad..