I know how you’re feeling mama. This was me with my first baby. I didn’t feel myself at all. I was extremely overwhelmed. And I thought it was supposed to be the happiest time but I was sad at the same time. It’s a huge adjustment as new parents and the bickering between us didn’t help either. Make sure you’re voicing this to your best friend or someone. Don’t feel alone. This might also be the baby blues. And the hormones. Hang in there it’s going to get better. The sleep deprivation probably isn’t helping either.
We’re in the depths of it now and it’ll get easier. I have to admit, I’ve had a few cries since my baby was born because my husband works away and I’m so tired of doing things alone and I’m so sleep deprived. Definitely, as the other person has said, meet up with people in here it go to baby groups. It makes you realise you’re not alone and we all have our struggles 🤍
It is really hard and you’re tired which doesn’t help! If you’re feeling like this it might be worth reaching out to the GP incase you have a case of PPD. It’s hard, but maybe try and get yourself out somewhere to try and meet some other mums who are going through a similar time - are there any feeding support groups/ stay and weigh / mother and baby groups locally you could get yourself to?