It's a beautiful moment when your little one is pulled put and placed on your chest. I was very anxious too, but all of it disappeared in that moment and was one of the best memories of my life, that first cuddle knowing he was safe. Consider it as an option as it may be a very healing experience for you? Also GA carries a lot more risks so they are unlikely to offer that...
Maybe it's different since you're in the UK and I am in the US but I was also extremely anxious for the same reasons. There were some anxiety meds they could give me through my IV. They initially didn't give them because they can make you super tired and not remember anything but I couldn't handle it and asked for them after they finished prepping me and before they actually started the procedure. They did make me super tired and there are parts I forgot but I felt uncharacteristically calm during it all. Maybe ask about anxiety meds during the procedure. They made such a difference for me personally.
I was the same as you. But I was advised by the anaesthetist a few days before, that my FH couldn't be in the room if I had general. I expressed my fears, and they told me if at any point I didn't like it, they'd knock me out. Perhaps you need to express your concerns to the anaesthetist too, and they'll offer you the same 👍. I decided to stay awake for my FH. But you'll be pleased to know the spinal was amazing, and I was so relaxed I fell asleep 🤣 I didn't need to be knocked out. The fear is much worse than the procedure
I was given versed once I was in the surgical room. It was great. I was alert and happy that whole time and I had a huge mental breakdown right before I went in too
I had major anxiety directly after my c section and could not sleep because I was so terrified. I felt like I couldn’t breathe and wouldn’t believe when nurses told me my oxygen was 100%. They gave me vistaril so I’d sleep
@Cierra this was me for a couple weeks after I had him. I had to sleep in the living room and a couple nights in the car because I didn't want to sleep in the bedroom
I asked for a sedative for mine for anxiety and was initially told I could be given some. On the day itself, they told me no though because it could be passed onto the baby. Maybe see if there's someone at the hospital you can talk to about your options beforehand. At my hospital, there was something called "birth options appointments". Good luck!