At my wits end and just need to vent

I am absolutely losing my mind. I love our son more than anything in the world and I am so happy and thankful to have him but we chose to leave Virginia and come back to Florida when we found out I was pregnant (we were not trying and I was actively and religiously taking my birth control) to be with family to make things easier on us. However, in leaving Va, I left my career of 12 years and all of my friends, some of which were like family, behind. Now I’m down here essentially alone and stuck at home because, though we are nearby family, they still work normal jobs as does my husband and our son is having absolutely horrendous colic episodes so bad he will not eat or sleep and will scream for hours on end which I refuse to just idly accept as “colic” and insist there has to be something to make him feel so bad. He is on reflux meds which we just doubled today, I’ve cut out dairy and caffeine, and I’m just beside myself trying to figure out what is going on. I have had anxiety in the past and have PPD also that is manifesting in fits of rage when I cannot get our son to settle. I have punched walls and doors, screamed, thrown my phone, etc. I feel so alone during the day even though we moved back to have support and I hate it. I know things will get better but right now I just feel so low. Just needed to put this out there. If anyone else is in this boat please reach out to me and we can talk. You are not alone. This is the lowest I have ever felt.

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message me mama i’m here to listen 🫶🫶 try getting some noise canceling headphones and turn on some music and turn it all the way up if you baby has been fed and changed and is okay but has colic it might help

My friend was told her baby had colic and it took her 3 different doctors to find out her baby was “allergic” to her breastmilk and the only thing she does good with is kendamil goat formula. Besides that. Take a walk with your baby on the stroller and some headphones and go get a coffee or do something that makes you happy. PP was hard for me and I hated being alone at home when my baby would scream so I went back to work at 9 weeks PP part time until I reach 12 weeks and believe me BEST DECISION EVER

@Emilia I wish going back was even an option for me right now honestly. I was a horse trainer and the barn and horses were my life. I miss it so much but moving out of state really made me lose all of my connections and I don’t think we’d be able to afford child care right now with it being so expensive. Really hoping to not give up on breastfeeding but may have to go to goats milk formula if nothing else works. We go for morning walks daily and I absolutely need to invest in the headphones. I’m just so scared I won’t hear something happening if I have headphones (thanks anxiety)

I hate the AirPods Max I think they are trash personally but they have the option where u can hear music n background or just noise canceling. I would say try goat but keep pumping just in case it doesn’t change you can go back to breastfeeding. And move back to VA lol. If the help you went to FL for is not making you happy, there’s no point in being there. I moved from FL to MA bc fl doesn’t pay anything compared to other states and we take him to an at home daycare which is wayyy cheaper than daycare

Headphones are a necessity. I usually wear them when I’m wearing her in the carrier or when I’m looking at her in the stroller. Otherwise I would really invest in some wax earplugs. They help take the edge off during crying fits. You can still hear but just a bit less. Im really sorry you are going through this.

In my opinion as someone who also moved back home to Florida for support from family during her pregnancy, if you don’t feel supported ask you husband about moving back. I just left Fl with my 3MO and moved back to Atlanta and although my family REALLY helped my boyfriend really wanted his family back. Now I’m here with no help and my advice would just be if you can go to where you can get help. While in my situation it sucks not being around family that helped a lot now I’m around friends that actually boosts my happiness and it is nice

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