Separation

I ripped up the papers, my husband and I were never officially married because we hadn’t sent in the papers (I wasn’t fully ready and felt like something might happen) last night we had a huge fight and I ended up ripping the documents up. He’s a manipulative narcissistic ass and accused me of turning his family on him and lying to them when they were literally hearing over the phone how he was acting and treating me. I told him I’m done and that I can’t do this relationship anymore. Mind you I’m 8 months pregnant with our second baby and going through all of this, I have no idea how I’m going to do any of this on my own. Currently him and I have not talk about what’s going to happen, but we are going to live together until I can make the money to move away and get my own place. I definitely do not plan on getting with another person for a long ass time and we will probably have a custody battle because I know he won’t let me leave and do 50/50 time with the kids without the courts involved. I sure as hell won’t leave my newborn baby with him for a week at a time. Things are just crazy and I don’t know how I’m going to get through this. I know separating will break me but I can’t keep living with and loving a disrespectful person.