Desperate for friends

Why is it so hard . It's terrifyingly hard to make friends . I don't like it . I don't like socialising. But I want friends. I want company sometimes . Dinner dates sometimes . Coffee dates sometimes Celebrating things sometimes. But most of the time I just want to be like " I have friends " . And like when people ask what my hobbies are . I don't struggle because I physically do shit with my friends sometimes . Or like just not being so available. Because I have friends . Can someone relate? I met a woman today . She was clearly lonely . Or children were similar in age . But did we talk . Fuck no . I'm traumatised. The last time I asked a woman for her number she never ever ever responded . Like how the heck am I supposed to make friends without looking weird . Ps, if you are that lady who was a think-tank today with your two girls at the car station and you're reading this comment something so we can be friends please. Thanks