Struggling to cope

This morning I've woken up and I know I'm just done. I can't even bring a fake smile to my face when talking to baby. The last 3/4 years have been the worst of my life, had our first miscarriage then had 5 more. Finally got pregnant and stayed pregnant but it's the worst pregnancy you could ask for. Had a very very traumatic birth which I have to place a formal complaint about, suffered a lot of abuse from midwives. Was so glad to get home and enjoy my family I worked so hard for!!! After 4 days in hospital after she was born. Day 5 we ended up in an and e with her vomiting blood. Day 8 my c section wound because very infected very fast and It didn't get any better until after 4 weeks. I was left unable to get in and out of bed for 2 weeks with the pain. Standing to shower was impossible. Day 19 we got thrush in the nipples and mouth from the antibiotics. I was sore but she was okay, started treatment and she got worse. Day 24 she refused to drink anything, and she's been horrible to feed since. Day 27 because of her latch and not emptying my breast, I got mastitis. Suffered through for 72 hours because gp wouldn't see me. Tried everything on google. Ended up being admitted to hospital as the infection was that severe. Still hasn't cleared up and she won't drink on that side at all, my pump won't work because it's that swollen and won't attach right. I can't empty my breast at all and the engorgement pain on top is killer. Last 3 nights she's screamed all night long and I can't figure out why. I think it's wind but nothing works. I can feel myself getting sicker and sicker. And I don't really feel like another trip to the hospital. 4 times a week is the minimum at the moment. Baby isn't gaining weight as much as she should since the thrush and the health visitor won't give me a break. My partner works 7-6 and then comes home and wants to relax then bedtime comes and it's just me by myself getting no sleep. Neither of our families offer any help or support. They come round and want a cuddle and picture and then leave. They know what is going on and they don't care. Not one person has asked if we need anything. I just feel like I'm completely and utterly alone. With everything that's gone on, this was meant to be the good thing that came but I haven't even been able to enjoy my daughter with how sick I've been. I'm just so burnt out, I'm so done, I've tried to b positive for weeks but I'm done. I just feel so much hatred for her everyone. I don't even know why I'm posting this but I need to tell someone. I just need a break from the shitness. I need to be well.